Shocker :(

so... its a friday night at 951. im sitting in my dorm room, alone, watching two weeks notice. now dont get me wrong... i love hugh grant and sandra bullock. but... spending a friday night alone on a college campus thats having a carnival at this very moment- super lame. my bff -ash- broke up with her beloved boyfriend yesterday. then drove about 2 hours south to go talk to him and get back together. and stephanie is spending the night with her boyfriend... and im spending it with... well, no one. but ya know, whatev. yesterday i deleted the last piece of evidence of having an ex boyfriend from wales from my phone. and surprising... i was ok. i still need to write about the whole story. but im still not in the mood. lets just say... we met in mexico, spend every waking moment together the entire week, fell in love, were gonna get married, found out his ex's kid was his, he broke it off, havent heard from him since august '08 and im still kinda crazy about him. yeah, i was ok when i deleted it yesterday. but if he called me up right now and said he wanted to get back together... id take him back in a heartbeat. i never ever thought i would/could fall in love. but i was sooo wrong... im not good when it comes to relationships. ill have to write about that sometime too. im kind of a horrible person when it comes to them actually. which sucks. ive already decided that ill be one of those cute women in her early thirties, lives in a cute little apartment, has a pretty good job, and no relationship. shes got a lot going for her and nobody understands why shes still single. and then she ends up being single forever. yupp... thats me in about 10 years. uhg, im sooo behind. stephs got a promise ring from chase. ashleys bf already knows the exact date hes gonna ask her to marry him. and i dont even have a boyfriend??!! what the hell, man. seriously. but its weird... i want a boyfriend but then when i get to the point where i could have one... i say no and dont want one. ill like someone, chase them til they like me, once they do and we start to get close- i put this wall up and i dont ever let anybody in. im trying to work on it. but... so far its not going so well... oh well... i guess nows not the time for one, huh...?? OH!! American idol this week... Anoop got voted off

i voted for him 225 times that week. seriously. i think hes incredible. i wanna go to the concert if they come here... but last year it was in september.... and if it is this year... ill be in London. which will be kick ass. but i really really wanna see this season 8 group!!!

i just found out something great!!!! theyre gonna be in indianapolis on september 5th. 3 days BEFORE i go to london!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!